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Ninth song off "Calendar", out on September 30th!
Artwork by Eli Wengrin
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After being diagnosed with terminal cancer at age 80, neurologist and author Oliver Sacks wrote a series of essays reflecting on his approaching death. These essays, compiled in a single volume with the title Gratitude, exude total calmness in the face of death. Sacks writes, “…my predominant feeling is one of Gratitude. I have loved and been loved… I have had an intercourse with the world, the special intercourse of writers and readers. Above all, I have been a sentient being, a thinking animal, on this beautiful planet, and that in itself has been an enormous privilege and adventure.”
None of us have ever experienced death first hand. I’ve had a few extended family members die, but fortunately I have never had to say goodbye to anyone close to me. However, I’ve experienced the ending of beautiful moments, and death could be seen as the final accumulation of all of these endings.
Just yesterday I came back to California after a few months of living with Luca and his partner Stefi. It’s the longest I’ve ever stayed with them, and for the last few weeks I felt less like I was passing through on vacation and more like I was with them permanently. In the past it has been very difficult for me to say goodbye to Luca, and I was worried that this year would be especially difficult, but I feel more gratitude than anything else. I am very thankful that have such wonderful and caring friends.
I don’t want to say that temporarily saying goodbye to a close friend is even remotely as difficult as dying, but the two emotions are undoubtedly related. Like everything in life, accepting the ending of a beautiful period gets easier with practice. Through a full and intense “intercourse with the world,” we are able to accumulate many experiences and see the death of many beautiful moments; Practice for the end of our lives. I am now back in California, and just today I saw Cooper from Mediocre Cafe, who wrote a beautiful guest verse for this song. I am excited to live this new period of my life, and feel immense gratitude at having had the opportunity to spend a few months with my best friend. Luca & Stefi, I love you and will see you soon!
lyrics
Gratitude
Is the feeling that I felt most
When you told me that I was about to die
Ending this joyful life
All those years I spent
thinking of this moment
Now it seems so normal
Just the way it’s supposed to go
Of course I can’t pretend
That I am not afraid
But as I said before
Gratitude is the feeling
It’s time to rest
Forget the past
And have the best dream
You have ever had
I know, you’ve been someone
But all this time has come and gone
And some pain is leaving now
It’s just, picking up your frown
I’m not too sure, we’re leaving it
It’s hard to sit feeling shit
It seems the days are gone
I miss them now
Trestles in your beard
Have grown a mile
It’s time to rest
Forget the past
And have the best dream
You have ever had
As I was always doing something else
I spent my whole life waiting for Godot
As I was always doing something else
It’s time to rest
Forget the past
And have the best dream
You have ever had
credits
released September 30, 2019
Written and produced by Luca Lovisetto
Second verse written and performed by Cooper Coffroth
Mastered by Dylan Wall
Artwork by Eli Wengrin
The Seoul-based indie pop duo lean deeper into the interplay between dance and emotion on their second album for Beeline Records. Bandcamp Album of the Day Aug 31, 2023